Mercy: A Memoir of Medical Trauma and True Crime Obsession, by Marcia Trahan
Mercy: A Memoir of Medical Trauma and True Crime Obsession, by Marcia Trahan
When Marcia Trahan began watching true crime television, she did so in secret. She felt ashamed by her fascination with these violent stories, and how hungrily she consumed one gruesome tale after another. Only years later did she start to connect the dots between her true crime obsession and the series of invasive medical procedures that had left her feeling victimized and violated.
Can the body tell the difference between an attacker’s knife and a surgeon’s? This is the central question in MERCY, a question that leads Trahan to re-examine her body’s reaction to lifesaving medical treatment, the childhood experiences that first made her feel unsafe in her own skin, and the true crime genre’s most common tropes.
Part searingly honest memoir, part incisive cultural criticism, MERCY explores the appeal of true crime and the way so many of us live our whole lives bracing for an attack.
Advance Praise for MERCY
“Mercy is a bracing account of the perverse satisfactions of true crime. Marcia Trahan unravels the threads of her own fascination with stories of violence against women, and they lead to unexpected—and darkly thrilling—places.”
— Rachel Monroe, author of Savage Appetites: Four True Stories of Women, Crime, and Obsession
“Mercy is a harrowing exploration of Marcia Trahan's lifelong fascination with true crime despite her best efforts to escape its dark pull. By turns cultural criticism and personal journey, the book is a painful reckoning with the realities of living in a female body under the specter of the male gaze.”
— Carolyn Murnick, author of The Hot One
“Marcia Trahan treats television the way it should be treated — as worthy of deep intellectual and emotional investigation, a companion inseparable from the pain and joys of our own lives. She writes with as much sharp insight as she does beautiful vulnerability. Mercy is memoir, it's criticism, it's a light shining into all the hard places that are easier to avoid.”
— Lucas Mann, author of Lord Fear: A Memoir, and Captive Audience: On Love and Reality TV
“Written with polished craft and sly wit, Marcia Trahan’s memoir Mercy offers the reader the genre’s best: a compelling personal narrative of peculiarly dark obsessions elegantly tethered to the wider culture. Mercy ultimately reveals as much about the reader and her world as it does about the narrator. Trahan’s gift for embedding ultimate questions within subversive reflections on medicine, murder, and marriage, makes this memoir a fascinating read from a brilliant writer. Lovely.”
— Kelly J. Beard, author of An Imperfect Rapture: A Memoir, winner of the 2017 Zone 3 Press Creative Nonfiction Book Award
“As a fellow true crime junkie, I marveled at Marcia Trahan’s deep questioning of why she found herself drawn to such disturbing and violent stories. The answer she discovered was so satisfying that I felt like I learned something important about myself while reading this well written, deeply honest, and enthralling memoir.”-
— Julie Barton, New York Times bestselling author of Dog Medicine: How My Dog Saved Me from Myself
“Mercy is a double-barreled narrative of health scares and murder stories. By combining these, Trahan highlights the fragility of both our physical and emotional lives. With surgically precise prose, she examines the push and pull of death – wanting one’s own survival while being drawn to the tales of others’ demise. This is a book about violation: the sanctioned violation of the body during surgery, and the unsanctioned violation of bodily harm. Trahan does a masterful job of showing how, psychically, these two kinds of violence overlap. In the end, this is a beautifully written book about being merciful. Especially to ourselves, which sometimes can be the hardest kind of mercy to give.”
— Sue William Silverman, author of How to Survive Death and Other Inconveniences
About the author
Marcia Trahan is a native Vermonter, a freelance book editor, and a semiprofessional patient. She earned a bachelor of arts in psychology from the University of Vermont and a master of fine arts in writing and literature from Bennington College. Follow her on Twitter: @MarciaTrahan.